Kades illness and recovery changed everything forever. It will be 7 years this October that everything started to spin out of control. Watch the video of Kades on set and progression of disease https://thisisit.blog/2017/10/15/no-more-boxes/ I cannot speak for him, that is his own story that he may or may not tell one day. I have … Continue reading Always there
I Love her
Lock down hit just at the beginning of Kades last year of high school. Education being important to him, I never will forget the words, "mum I don't want to be forgotten about", they still rang loudly in my mind. It was happening all over again, louder than before, they played on. For the last … Continue reading I Love her
I am happy. For the first time in the last five years I can say I am the happiest I have ever been. I still have days when I feel like I cannot keep fighting, but I will not ever give up and they are becoming less and less. Kade was awarded PIP for the … Continue reading Quite something
By his side
Lockdown for us was life. I never realised until Covid came along. Chatting to Kade, when it all began, I asked how he felt. "Well it's no different to how things have been for me"...point made. As time went on and I watched every one lose it. I reflected upon how I had felt for … Continue reading By his side
It is exhausting. Constant fighting. Arguing with strangers for pennies. Begging for help, I am not ashamed to say I have begged. I have asked the same questions a thousand times and still received no answers. I am more quiet than normal, people notice. I just need space to gather my strength to carry on. … Continue reading Always Right
While we wait. Once again I consider what the future holds. Assuming you have watched the video of my sons condition, you will understand what I say next. (See his video here https://thisisit.blog/2017/10/15/no-more-boxes/) What happened to him is something you cannot describe with words. To see it is to believe it. Even then, I have … Continue reading This Way
In our currant situation due to this COVID-19 out break many thoughts have passed through my mind. Sometimes I sit for hours just pondering what to think of it all (yes I am weird like that) After listening to many of my fellow PANS parents, likening the worlds currant situation to PANS itself, I whole … Continue reading The Fear
When lightning strikes twice
When you have a child diagnosed with a rare disease nothing prepares you. Growing up for me, life was ordinary, the only significant ailment I remember, was my brother breaking his arm when he was about 12 or 13. The second of four siblings, life was good. We had a nice home, we were happy … Continue reading When lightning strikes twice
Each and every single one of them.
Sometimes when I look back I wonder how we got here. The last four years have been intense to say the least. It is difficult enough having a child with a medically complex condition but harder when no one has the confidence to help. It is not like in the movies, every one rallying around … Continue reading Each and every single one of them.
Your absolute best
Recovery is an entirely different rabbit hole in my experience compared to the illness of PANS itself. Unique to each child it brings with it new challenges. I have followed many a families stories to date. Some recovering, some relapsing, some still in the throws, some just starting out. Each one grips my heart the … Continue reading Your absolute best